I can't believe I watched the whole thing!

Good evening! My son and I just got back from seeing the movie, "Paranormal Activity". It has been many years since I wanted to leave and ask for my money back during the first 15 min. of a movie. Talk about OMG! This is not worth your money people. Let me also warn you about the camera! It is supposed to be a new camera person taking the video of the movie and so it is very bouncy and fast etc... It actually made me nauseous.

So, now I am home and looking up movies that I thought and or think are scary to talk to my son about. I am hoping to rent some that will make him think. Paranormal Activity did not entertain me. It was just plain stupid.

Teens and their behaviour...

O.k. so I had every intention of doing the windows yesterday, but got caught up in what my son and I had talked about the night before. It seems that I (and his father) have created somewhat of a teen monster. Since I didn't have the kind of fruit he wanted for his lunch I am not a responsible mother. What? OH NO YOU DIENT! I've always hated arguing with people, anyone, but when it comes to my family, I hate it even more. So, on my mind was that behaviour deally and just the way the whole attitude thang has been steadily gettting worse.

I have a few friends that have kids (teens), and they tell me that I am not alone. Our generation, the baby boomers at the far end of the number line, are actually doing our kids an injustice. We want them to have everything we didn't have. I know that isn't a new problem, just hear me out. What we have done, since we didn't have it, is give them too much. We drive them everywhere, so they are not late, we know where they are, etc... We pick them up; we make sure all of their "needs" are met. But, what I forgot about is the kicker here, they want to tell us what else we can do for them. OH NO YOU DIENT! So, I bust my ass to provide all that I can, give up the master bedroom so my child can have the "space". I go without new clothes, so he can have new stuff. I trick out his whatever and leave mine blank... you catch my drift, and whammo!

So, I am not doing it anymore. Not quite cold turkey, but I am working on doing less, much less. Today I told my teen that he needs to be thinking long and hard about Driver's Training Courses. I was a bit ambivalent about him driving for years and then it hit me, how is he going to get over this Mom will do it thang unless I stop? Our kids don't even want to drive! It's so much nicer for Mom and Dad to do everything for me. NOT! It ain't happening here.

I know that driving a car is a huge responsibility. Yes, you guys I know that. My child will have to show me that he is ready before I will let him drive away in the car I will have to buy for him. My point is that he will have to. I am going to have to cut him off. I will have to say no. GASP! I will have to say no. Or, if he doesn't want to learn to drive or doesn't want to show me his is responsible, then like a friend just told me the other day, "He is in college and he will be riding his bike."

So, let the sunshine in...face it with a grin...

I am off from work today and thank god for small favors. There has been a lot of tension growing there and it always gets worse of course during our busy times. I would love to have a rolling digital message board on my forehead, that let people know all of the tasks I was trying to perform simultaneously.

It is clear and sunny outside. I've opened the windows and am getting ready to clean them up. Hmmm don't know if I can do a great job, but I can do an o.k. one. Isn't it nice to have clean windows after some weird weather?Where is that cleaning fairy I've been hearing about? I need her. Calgon, take me away. More coffee, and then I'll get going. Maybe.

and the beat goes on...

Perhaps the best thing one can do when the going gets tough is to get going. I have been doing a lot of thinking about moving and or at least changing jobs. I vent a lot about how California is too expensive and the people being too rude and in a hurry about everything. It really is crazy.

So, what next? I hate the wait and see attitude! What am I going to do about it? I am starting by doing nothing. (besides writing in this blog as often as I want) I am not going to make any abrupt decisions. I am going to think about what I want out of life. What makes me happy, what makes me sad, etc...I am starting now. No more letting other people get to me. Is that possible?

Maybe when we get older we actually do get a bit wiser. (I always thought that was a corny saying.) But, ya know what? I am starting to feel like I can do things I never thought I could. I probably worry less because the stuff I used to think was important really isn't. Money is not as important as I once thought it was. It's nice to have duh? But, what is really important?

Family and friends are what life is all about. Being able to speak your mind and not withhold your feelings when you are belittled or condescended to should be up there too. Is our purpose on this Earth to make others feel better about themselves? Does placating and kissing ass serve a purpose that benefits me? In some instances, probably. I should be able to pick and choose those instances though.

Sick of drama people

Why do some people have the notion that just because they have a "title", that they are better than someone who really doesn't? I get that if you are a Doctor you want to be called Doctor because it took you a long ass time to get your degree. But...what about the other people who maybe have a 2 yr. degree or 4? I do not have a degree.

I do not have a degree because of circumstances that really aren't anybody's business but my own. I would have liked to be a Pilot to tell you all the truth, but that didn't work out for me. I probably should have become a teacher, because I am really great with kids. (little kids) I just would like everyone to get to a point where we all treat each other better.

You know if we want to wear pants we all have to put them on one leg at a time, etc... I'm tired of the bullshit. Eventually, I will tell everyone why I don't have a title I guess. I am getting to the point where I want to make others feel badly for treating me badly. No going Postal or Columbine...just feelings.

Smart people

I just found out today that my little Sister is going into the National Guard. She is one smart cookie. I wish I had her gumption and brains. The Guard will pay off $60,000 in student loans, give her $10,000 as a sign on bonus and she will be able to stay in her home town to finish up getting her hours to become a Veterinarian. I just hope they bring the troops home from Iraq and Afghanistan soonl.