Sunday, September 12, 2010

Symptoms...related or not?

Woke up today with a numb right shoulder, arm and hand. Also, half of my left uppper lip was numb. Weird. I just worry when things like this happen cuz ya never know. Once a person has experienced something like a Dr. telling you that you need to have brain surgery, you kinda keep up with things like numbness.


So, now it's back to getting an appointment with my favorite Doctor of all time. No, it is not the one that everyone thinks. I went to see him before and he was a complete jerk. No, I will see my Dr. Herman. I absolutely would recommend him to anyone who needed any kind of advice about Neuro surgery. The only problem with going to see him is that I am scared. I am always scared to see him because of what he has told me in the past.


Imagine being told that your Doctor thinks you should have brain surgery within a week. No, let's look at this further, see what else we can find out... Oh and by the way, did you have any trouble walking into the office? UGH! Here we go again.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Where's the motivation?

I need to get to the gym or to simply get outside and walk, but where's the movivation? Lately I've been filled with worry about everything. (must be the pure mind breaking free from the foggy med sats) I have to push myself to overcome and get past all the crap.

How do you all motivate yourself? I am working on creating enough crocheted items to post on Etsy. But, that is taking too long. I am saving to go on another trip, but it is taking too long. I'm like that guy on TV who doesn't even want to wait for the popcorn to finish popping. I want it all and I want it right now.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Is it just me?

I have this problem in my life and I won't be able to get rid of it for a couple more years... What do I do? I try to make the best of it. I try to do what I can so I don't have any more drama than absolutely necessary. I play the game.

Every now and then though, something happens. My problem raises it's ugly head and I get mad. Just when I think I can tolerate it, it goes above and beyond the call of duty and I can't take it. How do I control an uncontrollable sitch? OMG!

I have been doing so well. I have even stopped taking alot of medication. (oh my) It was expensive, it was making me fat and I basically didn't care about much. I really thought things were finally getting better. Whammo again. UGH!

Why is it that we women let ourselves let other people upset us so much? I think men just get mad and get over it. I stay mad and emotional for days. Sometimes longer. Razzberries!